Posts Tagged ‘Divorce’


January 4, 2009

Well, please let me welcome you to my new blog. 2008 was hands down the worst year of my life and I am bound and determined to make 2009 one of the best years of my life. So let me quickly recap for you my lovely last year of existance. I continued my 11 year battle against Mulitple Sclerosis (and don’t feel I made any significant victories in my little war), I got divorced, I found out one of my best friends was really not my friend at all, I ventured back out into the dating world only to realize that not only was I not really ready but men still lie, cheat and steal to get their ways regardless of it’s impact on you (but have no fear – I am not a man hater), I started losing my ability to breathe and was admitted into the hospital for congestive heart failure (that’s right – the good ole ticker was only working at 15%!!), I won’t even venture into the family drama that has gone on lately that only makes me sick to my stomach, and I got to close out the year with a whole new life of low sodium diets & changing how I pretty much do everything. Oh… and did I mention I am only 31?????

So, my New Years Resolution for 2009 was me! To figure out this crazy path of living with heart falure, get to know me all over again so I can figure out what I want & who I want to spend my time with and find some cemblance of inner peace! There is a saying that negativity begets negativity (read Nicole’s post on facebook, it’s a good one!) What you put out into the universe comes back to you. My normal way of dealing with all of life’s stresses and ups & downs was to hit the gym for a hard workout or go for a really hard run or just dance my heart out. And right now with my heart, I can’t do those things (they say too much adrenaline right now could make the dumb thing explode!). Therefore, I am releasing in one of the first ways I know how to – to vent, to rant, to write, and to learn.

This blog will not just be a ranting of all the things that have gone wrong in my life. This will be a journey as I discover everything that has gone right. It will be a learning experience for both of us about heart failure, MS, health, love, life and new ways of living. I do want this to also be educational. Just the little bit I have learned about low sodium and the effects on your body are amazing. Anyways, more on that later….

Now to explain why I chose the name, “Salt is NOT the Spice of Life”. Think about salt in your life. What do we use it for? Chefs, cooks, people in general use salt to flavor food – to add a certain spice, taste or kick. It enhances the flavor of the food. If you ever watch Rachel Ray on Food Network, she always throws salt over her shoulder when she cooks with it for good luck. There are containers of bath salts that you can add to your bath to help relax the body and create a more enjoyable bubble bath experience. While that is how salt effects most normal people’s lives, it does none of those things for me. Salt is not only my enemy now, I have to also learn how to make it my friend. Too much salt and I’m in trouble. Too little salt and I’m in trouble. It’s a weird balance that I am trying to figure out. Salt doesn’t add flavor to my food or my life, it doesn’t relax me. In fact, it does the exact opposite – I stress out all the time now about salt. So for me, Salt is not the spice of my life. But I know in 2009, I will find out exactly what is!!

I have always believed that when God closes a door He opens a window somewhere. I feel a lot of doors were slammed in my face in 2008 and I am crawling thru this window for 2009. I hope you will come with me and help me enjoy this journey!