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Riftamous

April 13, 2009

If you read the last blog, you know I am a little behind on updating this. Sorry. I think I needed a mental break. Last week was just the week from hell. I seriously was starting to question whether or not I would get my head above water to breathe. I’ve had this ongoing battle with reality and then this “other party” decided to step into the ring last week. The funny thing is, in Tae Kwon Do as you move up in the belts, you add more people that you learn to fight. In one sense, I should be prepared for this. But last week I was really getting hit with some low blows, to the point it really became personal.

So I left on Thursday to head up to the mountains and get away. My Dad has this philosophy that once you get up to the mountains you leave all the worries from the city in the city. I used to think it was all the bloody maries that made it so relaxing up there. Now I can’t drink them anymore. There really is something to my Dad’s philosophy. Just breathing the mountain air, hearing the rain on the tin roof, being away from the city and in nature – its just relaxing. Its hard to get angry at anything. And some close family friends came up to visit and we just had a blast! It was just what I needed. Then I headed over to Columbia to see Secondhand Sernade with Lee Ann. I LOVE that band (well, some might say I am obsessed with them…)!! On Sunday I woke up to a very strained voice… but still got to catch up with some friends from Columbia. Suz – I loved our lunch, and just catching up. And Drew, I could spend hours just laughing with you!! Then headed back to Atlanta to get caught up in traffic from the Masters. But by then my voice had completely gone, so I couldn’t yell at any of the bad drivers. The only downfall was that since Sunday was Easter, Groucho’s was closed. So another Columbia trip will be coming soon. Its been a decade since I’ve had the most incredible sandwhich in the world – an STP!!

I went to the doctor this morning, my voice is completely gone (laringitis) and I have a sinus infection. My head feels like it has been beat up with a baseball bat. (hmm… hopefully I don’t look like I feel…) So I’m supposed to be looking for a job and I have no voice to talk to anyone. WTF?????

The good thing is that I was still relaxed from my mountain/concert trip, even though I feel horrible. And I had the funniest conversation with my friend Kimmie on the phone today. It is amazing how much laughter can be a good medicine for the soul. I have to say, as much as she was laughing at me telling her the stories in my tiny voice, I was laughing at it too. And I got to catch up on text message with my nephew. Now I am writing this blog, watching re-runs of Golden Girls (we are almost done with Season 7, and I’m still laughing at the sound of me laughing – its really funny in this non-voice I have) and eating my favorite Ben & Jerry’s ice cream. Some say when life gives you lemons make lemonade. I say when life hits you in the face with a bat, eat Ben & Jerry’s ice cream!!! Ha!!

So… last week was riftamous.

This weekend was really riftamous!

And this week will be riftamous!!!!!! (muah MA!!)

Here’s to going up from here in the most riftamous way!

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I’m Not Ready to Make Nice

April 13, 2009

I meant to post this blog last Thursday night  (keep that in mind when you read it), so I’m a little behind…..

Evidentally reality and others didn’t head my warning of what happens when I get pushed into a corner. I took the high road this week. I didn’t have to, but I did anyways. I had hoped that the same courtesy would be extended back to me, but it seems the other party decided they not only didn’t want to do the same, they also wanted to play as dirty as they could.  I took the higher road because that is the right thing to do. Because that is how I was raised. Because that is what God tells us to do. We don’t always have to be right or have the last word, but we do have to be the better person. But let me make sure one thing is clear, being the better person doesn’t mean I will just lay down and let you run over me.

With what is being thrown at me and what is currently on my plate, I wish a simple yoga class could make it all better. It may temporarily relax me, but it won’t make this go away and it won’t solve any of the problems I am being faced with.

I don’t know how much clearer I can be with reality and this “other party” – I’M NOT READY TO MAKE NICE! I’M NOT READY TO BACK DOWN! (And yes, I’m still mad as hell!) I am not being overly dramatic when I say this is seriously my life you are messing with, and I WILL NOT go away or go down without a fight. This is no longer business, now you made it very, very personal. And when you mess with my life, you not only have me to face, you have my entire family to deal with.
And may I add… I am not the only one in my family with martial arts training. On top of that, one of my nephews fought in Iraq and the other is a damn good shot when he hunts. The Bowyers is not a family you really want to mess with.

Dixie Chicks – “I’m Not Ready to Make Nice”
Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting

I’m through with doubt
There’s nothing left for me to figure out
I’ve paid a price
And I’ll keep paying

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can’t you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’
It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they’d write me a letter
Sayin’ that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting