We’ve all had it, we’ve all done it at one point or another in our lives – had that extra drink that gave you the courage to say things you wouldn’t have otherwise, or approach that one hottie at the bar to ask for their number. And how many stories have you heard of someone having a little too much to drink and doing the ever reliable “drunk dial” or “drunk text”? Why is it that sometimes we need that liquid boost to say things that should be so easy? Does the liquid confidence actually help you see things more clearly, or completely cloud your judgement? And why is that the Jack can’t filter what he should and shouldn’t give you the confidence for?
Last night I was reminded of so many things…. some of them thanks to my good ole trusty friend Mr. Jack Daniels!!
Letting go of your dreams is like a child letting go of a balloon. Taking a trip down memory lane was eye opening for me. Sort of helped me put somethings in perspective, of some dreams to hold onto with all my might and some dreams I just need to let go and float away off in the air, like that balloon. Some feelings I still haven’t found the courage to face, and others I maybe had a little too much courage to face! And some that just shouldn’t have been faced period. Ha, thanks Jack!!
Jack and I have been thru a lot over the last year. He’s been there thru a lot of hard times, and some good times too. There were some deep, hidden issues he helped bring to the forefront for me – whether I am ready to face them or not, and whether I like the answers or not. And some restless demons I wished he hadn’t stirred up.
I will say that me and Jack are re-negotiating this relationship we have. He needs to better understand what to give me the liquid confidence to face, and what things are better off floating away, like that balloon! Oh, and the headaches the next day really aren’t necessary!!
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August 14, 2009 at 9:29 pm |
I cried when I read this.. And I tend to never cry. One of lifes hardest tasks is to say what needs to be said, or not, at the perfect moment.. So no regrets and no lost moments. In so many ways I have often said the wrong thing at the wrong time or worst still, not at all. Forging on is the only answer AND learning rather regretting.. Hence letting go. Still tweeking this skill.. But thanks to you and many loved ones, I have faith in me.
August 22, 2009 at 10:37 am |
Thanks Kris! You’re right, it’s better to have said it at the wrong time than to never had said it at all. I can’t change the words I put out there, I just have to deal with the consequences of them, or how maybe they may change my viewpoints and perspectives. I don’t really regret what I said, I struggle with some of the thoughts I had and some of what was said to me back. In college we used to always joke that the “real” truth comes out when you’ve had too much to drink. I think that concept is what bothers me too much about the liquid confidence…… Is it really the truth, or a drunken garble of thoughts you can’t think clearly enough to put in the correct sentence?