Facedown, huh??

Well, well, well…. Reality you’ve been a little quiet here lately. Trying to regoup? Actually trying to find a group to help you fight? You’re not big enough or strong enough to take my little butt down by yourself so you recuit reinforcements? Fine – BRING IT ON!! Bring-It-On!!

I’ve tried to forewarn you that I was raised in karate. I even went so far as to tell you one of my favorite martial artists to study under – Bruce Lee. And yet, you still don’t get it. You think adding all of these people here over the last week and a half to attack me would work? Obviously you know NOTHING about training to get your black belt. With each belt you move up, you fight more people at one time. So bring it on. Throw as many at me as you think you need to – you still won’t win.

Obviously we are back in the ring again. I knocked you out pretty fast in Round 3 last time. I can see you’ve tried to train a little, you’re throwing me some good punches. However, I can also see that this time you really want to play dirty. But this is far from over. And don’t think the referree is going to start counting me out just yet. You couldn’t win on the food angle, so you’re hitting up my stress level as much as you can. I’m going to tell you right now that I didn’t fight like hell to get out of that wheelchair, to get off of my walker and put my cane away to let a “group” of people (or YOU) be able to bring me down for good.  (sidenote for people who may be a little confused right now, my doctor has told me I do not know how to relax. And this is a key aspect for my heart to get stronger – to just relax…..Reality has decided to launch the next battle with me by attacking certain stresses in my life)

One characteristic that made Bruce Lee such a powerful martial artists is that he knew how to read his opponent. He could anticipate your move before you even threw it. And he knew how to instantly turn strength into power. And his philosophies on life were just as powerful and magnectic as he was. Here is the one I have really been meditating on lately:  “Be Formless, shapeless like water. Now if you put water into a cup it becomes the cup, you put water into a bottle it becomes the bottle, you put it into a teapot it becomes the teapot. Now water can flow or it can crash, be water my friend.”

Here is where I got such a good laugh at our latest little fist fight. I’ve been angry about this in my mind, its caused me to lose sleep…. and when I landed in Atlanta this afternoon and got off the plane – two songs played back to back at random on my ipod. You all know how strongly I connect with music. And these two songs gave me back this fighting spirit that was silently resting. Things were starting to go so well I had almost forgotten you were still there Reality. Not anymore!

“Do you fee like a man when you push her around
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground……

Face Down in the dirt
She said this doesn’t hurt
She said
Song: Facedown by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

“I ain’t gonna be just a face in the crowd
You’re gonna hear my voice as I shout it out loud
It’s my life, it’s now or never
And I ain’t gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I’m alive
It’s my life, my heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just wanna live while I’m alive
Song: It’s My Life by Bon Jovi

I’m cracking my knuckles getting ready to land the next blow. You think I’m facedown, well – this doesn’t hurt! I’ve had freakin enough and you better hear my voice loud and clear because it’s MY life not yours to mess with!

One Response to “Facedown, huh??”

  1. Cathy Bowyer / Mom Says:

    you go get um girl!!!!!

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